Its been a long time since I last blogged here. Kinda miss this blog. Too bad, I can't find my old blogskin. argh. sickening. ahh wells. this is meaningful as well=)
Hmm.. Juz gt a sudden urge to blog here. Cuz most of my memories r here. whether hapi or sad. Ysd, I wus browsing thru; gt reminded of sum memories. sum so dear to my heart, sum yet so heartwrenching. hais.
Recently, I juz feel so stressed out. argh. this is my first encounter wif such a case. N sumhow, the emotions tt I am goin thru right nw, seems so familiar. So familiar to wat I haf been thru during my last breakup. *shrugs* I duno why either. Perhaps, its cuz I reali do treasure her alot. as in, I reali do treasure all my frenships d lahx. My tearglands haf been overly active recently. Haven been crying fer so long le. Nt tt I miss the feeling. haha. I dun lyke to cry lah. haha. but juz feel tt if I juz kip deceiving myself tt I m really ok when I m not at all, I will end up feeling much worse. hais.
Seriously, I am shocked at such a situation occuring in my life. I haf nv had such a prob wif ane of my frens before. Nv before. This is juz so weird lahx. Its lyke.. its happening fer no obvious reasons. I hate such cold wars. Its torturous, stupid, n reali hurting. argh. todae, after the klaz's celebration fer susu, I juz stoned in the canteen, refusing to eat, cuz I reali din haf the mood nor appetite to. shocking uh? hah. *shrugs* leen wus probing la n asking me if I m goin to leave things as it is. I duno why. but, tears juz automatically welled up. *i m nt pms-ing! hah* argh. JS wus near my area, I din wana cry in front of him again, I ran to the nearest toilet, wif leen chasing after me. In the toilet, she wus trying to comfort me, but no use d la. all the worse, I cried. ha. told her to leave me alone fer sumtime but leen wus worried abt me. hah. nt as though I'll kill myself or anething. o.O" juz needed sum time to calm myself dwn lo. hah. hmm. Am pretty ok now. =)
`I juz wana b hapi.
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